Monday, December 15, 2014

The One about the Fairy . . .

Last week I posted a picture of my Christmas Sugarplum Fairy. All of you seemed interested in her story, so here's what I can tell you.

Last year my sister-in-law gave me this decorative sugarplum fairy, but I didn't get to use it until this year. 

That's the story. Not very exciting, I'll grant you, but that's about it.

Now why would my sister-in-law give me a fairy for Christmas? That's probably a better story.

Many years ago I developed a liking for fairies, especially those drawn by Cicely Mary Barker.  I couldn't really explain it, I just knew that their images made me happy and filled me with peace. My family accepted this and periodically bought me little fairy-themed items.

Over time I've come to understand that the fairies represented safety and protection to my child-mind. I had "memories" of fairies coming to me and helping me during some of the episodes of abuse. In particular, there is an episode involving the barn where I envisioned fairies watching over and protecting me until the abuse was over.

I used to be embarrassed by this affinity for fairies. I assume what I saw at that time was dragonflies flying over the hay, perhaps even in and out of the barn as the abuse took place, but in my child-mind they became fairies. Fairies sent there to care for me. To offer comfort, peace, and joy, and perhaps, distraction.

I have a lot of fairies in my house. In my bedroom, the bathroom, randomly placed around other rooms. And I have lots of dragonflies now as well. It's a way of honoring my status as a survivor, and a way to banish that unnecessary embarrassment that hounded me for years. We all find ways to survive the bad things.

There are worse ways than fairies.

6 comments:

  1. Fairies, angels, dragonflies. I'm so sorry that you've experienced so much hurt in your life. May God continue to help you find hope and healing and may he continue to leave symbols of his perfect love for you in the form of fairies, angels and dragonflies. We live in an imperfect and sick world.

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    1. Thank you for your kind thoughts. I do believe the fairies and dragonflies were "visitations" if you will from Jesus to help me. So now I honor them. Blessings.

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  2. So sorry that you had to live with that kind of abuse in your life, but I am glad that you are survivor who is willing to share her experiences to help others. May God bless you.

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    1. Thank you. It has been a difficult road, but telling is helping me and others.

      Blessings.

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  3. My heart aches, as I to have experienced pain and abuse, I am so glad you are able to share your story and give hope to those who have and are going through the same things!

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    1. I am sorry that you understand, and yet grateful to have shared with you.

      Blessings.

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