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Friday, June 22, 2012

Risk

I took a risk years ago when I first told my parents about the abuse I had suffered as a child and the rape in college. I took a risk in presuming that they would love me the way I love my kids. I took a risk that it would hurt them so badly to see me hurt.
It didn't play out that way. They didn't react in love and support. They didn't pound me into the ground either, but it wasn't good or positive or helpful.
I'm taking a new risk. I'm standing my ground. I'm continuing to do what I believe God wants me to do. I'm trusting that the fact that I feel calmer and more peaceful is God's way of letting me know it's okay.
Later I may take the risk of letting my parents back in to my life on a daily basis. I may agree to talk with them again about what happened, how they failed me, how it's impacted my adult life, and what I want going forward.
Right now I'm all "risked" out. 
I'm looking toward a risk free summer and I'm liking the view.



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