It's hard work, this hiding. Keeping all my real, true feelings inside. Trying to figure out what everyone else wanted me to be, think, feel.
What I didn't realize during all those years is I wasn't hiding anything from God. I was just hurting myself by cutting off the greatest support system in the world.
He already knew it all. He knew more about me than I did. He knew I'd been abused. He knew I was scared and why I was scared. He was just waiting for me to turn to Him because His arms were wide open all that time.
I try not to hide now. I try to tell the truth. I trust in Him to guide to the people to share with and keep me from the people that will harm me. I don't always succeed, and it can be really scary not hiding. But hiding is like holding your breath. You can only do it for so long.
I am breathing easier now.
linking up with Five Minute Friday
Wow, yes. Things like abuse can make us very timid. Thanks be to God for His strength and guidance, and help in venturing forth...
ReplyDeleteEXCELLENT. Best "hide" post I've read yet!
ReplyDeleteAmen, my friend! Amen!
ReplyDeleteThis is so refreshing Melanie. I am with you!
ReplyDeleteI love this one! I can relate in so many different ways. Thank you for sharing your story and laying it all out there for us to read. You are beautiful!
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