Thankful Thursday #29

Today I'm thankful that yesterday is over.

Sometimes I look at my life in comparison to others' and wonder why I have such a difficult time.

Recently I've written about a lifelong friend who received that devastating cancer diagnosis (read more here). I have 2 other friends who are battling cancer, and this past weekend another friend had a lake accident that could have left her paralyzed. Blessedly she is recuperating from her 8 hours surgery and seems to be making good progress, but she has a long road ahead of her.

I am so sympathetic to these people. I am so impressed by their ability to handle their struggles with such grace, faith, and even humor.

Not so much me.

I feel as if I've been fighting a battle all summer and I'm tired and I want it to go away or at the very least end the way I want it to end.

Yesterday was another visit with another professional who gave me the same news I've been getting for months. This can't be fixed.

I know this intellectually. I even know it in my heart. The problem is it just makes me so sad and confused.

I will never have the relationship with these people that I crave; that I deserve. And they are missing out on so much while blaming me.

So today I'm thankful for my gracious heavenly Father who listens to my constant struggles and forgives me for being a slow learner.

I am thankful for my husband who is constantly at my side, helping along.

I am thankful for encouragement from others that I am not a crazy person, I just have some crazy-making people in my life.

But mostly I am thankful and praising God for the good news 2 of my friends received regarding their cancer and for the successful surgery on my other friend's back. I continue to ask that you lift up my friend, Sara, as I fear she may be losing her battle.

Praise God from whom all blessings flow!

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