I am not a joiner. I have trust issues. I worry too much and can be paranoid.
I want to be connected like the definition says, but it's the joining that stymies me.
I don't enjoy the process of getting to know people. I worry that I'm misinterpreting or being misinterpreted.
I want there to be a way to connect without having to go through the joining phase.
But that doesn't work.
Even in my relationship with God, I had to go through joining. I had to open myself up to Him to be able to connect. It had nothing to do with Him. It was all about me.
I really want to connect, so I'm going to work on joining.
Will you join with me?
Yes...it is so hard to make that leap. We want the benefits of plugging in, of being connected, but we also know that means work. I hear you.
ReplyDeleteIsn't it something how afraid most of us seem to be that if we join, we'll be rejected? I've felt that way so many, many times, too.
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