It's Sunday morning and my dh comes home from Malaysia tonight. He is flying from Hong Kong to Dallas, TX right now, and hopefully getting some sleep.
What have I learned while he's been gone? That I don't sleep or keep a schedule well when he's not around. And that video chatting is better than not hearing from him, but it's a far cry from face to face time spent together. Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled that I could see his face and hear his voice, but there is a stilted nature to these conversations. Maybe we need better equipment. Maybe it's just the distance between us, but it was difficult to converse casually with each other.
I knew I didn't sleep well without him before he ever left, but as I mentioned earlier this week, I spent some time trying to determine more specifically why. I thought about the idea of safety. The concept that I'm not dependent on him to "keep me safe". I am an adult. Fully capable of taking care of myself.
I don't know that I've fully conquered this sleeping alone demon, but I certainly made some progress.