Ordinary is one of those adjectives I craved for years. I thought normal would mean everything was all right -- the way it was supposed to be. But really look at that definition -- with no special or distinctive features -- I mean come on, is there anyone who fits that kind of description?
What I was really craving all those years was to be seen fully. I wanted people to know the real, honest to goodness me, but I was so terrified of being rejected that I worked constantly on trying to figure out what those others wanted me to be. I strove to be something I wasn't. I tried to appear to be the perfect Christian girl, but I didn't feel any of it. It was all just an act to try and get by.
Ordinary is a lie. Real is the truth. And real is messy. Real isn't based on comparisons with everyone else. Real is opening up to God and saying "I'm a mess, and I need your help". Ordinary says everything is easy and constant. Life follows a predictable plan. And anyone who's lived even one single day knows the lie in that.
So I'm throwing out ordinary and normal, again.
I am me. I am unique. I am who God made me to be. I just need to learn to trust Him more to see the beauty of what He created.
linking up with Five Minute Friday
"Real is opening up to God and saying "I'm a mess, and I need your help'". - Love this! How we are extraordinary, created and loved by an amazing and beyond extraordinary God... I'm stopping by from Five Minute Friday- nice to meet you, Melanie! :)
ReplyDeleteOh, I like your perspective on ordinary! That we hide in the ordinary because it's comfortable and safe. That we don't have to put ourselves out there and be real. Yes, I see that.
ReplyDeleteChristy @ A Heartening Life
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