I am standing in my bedroom in the house I grew up in. My great-grandmother's chifferobe is on the wall in front of me. It is covered in heavy layers of dust and dirt and mud and excrement. It is disgusting to look at and even worse to touch.
I am compelled to go to it. To try and clean it off. I begin to brush away the detritus and see that there are mouse droppings, cobwebs, and dead bugs mixed in with the dirt and grime. But I must open the chifferobe.
I open the door and see more dust and cobwebs. Old rotting clothing hangs from wire hangers, but I sense something. I push the rotting clothes away and see sunlight. I smell fresh, clean air. There is beauty and freedom beyond the disgust, but I will have to work through all the dirt and excrement to get to it.
I am afraid, but I crave the beauty I sense beyond the horror.
And so I begin to clean.
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Wow. Beauty behind the horror. Great mental image.
ReplyDeleteI think that's why it's stayed with me for all these years.
DeleteSounds like you have some internal cleaning to work on ;) Stunning imagery, really very beautiful.
ReplyDeleteOh yes! I've been cleaning up crap for the past 13 years. But it was great imagery that I took as a gift.
Deleteinteresting imagery...or else you should avoid watching hoarders before bed...enjoyed your post immensely.
ReplyDeleteDon't watch hoarders! LOL! All about imagery to help work through childhood sexual abuse. I took the dream as a gift :)
Deletevery interesting--almost poetic. Stopping by from mama kats kelley at the road goes ever ever on
ReplyDeleteThanks!
DeleteYou completely drew me in!
ReplyDeleteThank you. I think that's part of the reason the dream has stuck with me so clearly for all this time.
DeleteWhat a vivid dream. I'm sure it's connected with the journey of inner healing you've been on. The good new is that there's a beautiful place of freedom before you!
ReplyDeleteUndoubtably. I had this dream years ago when I first began remembering the abuse.
DeleteWhat a fascinating dream? Is the chifferobe an actual piece of furniture from your grandmother? And, are you getting ready to refinish it? If it is, it will be just as you described at the end of your dream.
ReplyDeleteIt was my great grandmother's but currently is in my parents' home. It was never actually in my bedroom until I moved out. My great grandmother and I were quite close. Maybe someday I'll have actually possession of the piece.
DeleteWhoa! Beautiful message and such a powerful dream!
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