May I just brag for a moment?
I have 4 freshly baked loaves of sourdough bread on the cooling racks
. . . 4 mini loaves of whole wheat sourdough bread in the oven
. . . 5 pounds of pork tenderloin medallions in the crockpot
. . . and a HUGE milk salad chilling in my refrigerator
. . . oh yes, and 8 mini loaves in the refrigerator as well (well 7 now).
And it's just 8 AM.
I'm rockin' it this morning : )
Blessings!
Sunday, September 30, 2012
A Little Bit of Bragging
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Saturday, September 29, 2012
{this moment}
A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.
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Friday, September 28, 2012
Goals and Ambitions
I started writing years ago. That random journaling that girls do all through high school. Writing down feelings, pain, thoughts, dreams, desires.
I gave it up. It seemed silly, childish, and immature. All that whining.
I went into therapy around 30. The counselor suggested journaling, but all I could do was chronicle my days.
I gave it up. It seemed silly, childish, and immature. All that minutiae.
I forged ahead trying to live my life the way everyone told me I should.
I broke.
I started writing again. It was the only way to get the thoughts and pictures in my head to calm down. It seemed silly, childish, and immature. But this time I couldn't give it up. I needed to "tell" someone.
I vomited out all the horror of abuse, betrayal, distrust, and shame.
Eventually I started to share what I'd written.
I started a blog.
I wanted to share my past, my present, and my dreams for my future.
I questioned my reasons. I wrote anyway.
I dream of writing a book that is cohesive -- that helps other people with similar struggles.
I wonder about my motivations. Are they pure?
I wonder if I am setting myself up as a survivor. Am I survivor?
I worry about questions asked that I can't answer.
I worry about memoirs that are discounted after the fact.
I worry about someone calling me a liar, just like they said would happen.
But I keep writing. Telling the story. Sharing the pain. Hoping for the best.
I'm not sure if those are goals, ambitions, aspirations. I just know it's what keeps me moving forward. Because maybe it wasn't ever silly, childish, and immature. Maybe it is just my life. And that makes it worth telling.
I gave it up. It seemed silly, childish, and immature. All that whining.
I went into therapy around 30. The counselor suggested journaling, but all I could do was chronicle my days.
I gave it up. It seemed silly, childish, and immature. All that minutiae.
I forged ahead trying to live my life the way everyone told me I should.
I broke.
I started writing again. It was the only way to get the thoughts and pictures in my head to calm down. It seemed silly, childish, and immature. But this time I couldn't give it up. I needed to "tell" someone.
I vomited out all the horror of abuse, betrayal, distrust, and shame.
Eventually I started to share what I'd written.
I started a blog.
I wanted to share my past, my present, and my dreams for my future.
I questioned my reasons. I wrote anyway.
I dream of writing a book that is cohesive -- that helps other people with similar struggles.
I wonder about my motivations. Are they pure?
I wonder if I am setting myself up as a survivor. Am I survivor?
I worry about questions asked that I can't answer.
I worry about memoirs that are discounted after the fact.
I worry about someone calling me a liar, just like they said would happen.
But I keep writing. Telling the story. Sharing the pain. Hoping for the best.
I'm not sure if those are goals, ambitions, aspirations. I just know it's what keeps me moving forward. Because maybe it wasn't ever silly, childish, and immature. Maybe it is just my life. And that makes it worth telling.
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Grasp
grasp -- seize, clutch, embrace, understand
i listen as the therapist explains, again, this concept of dissociation.
i lean in to make sure i am absorbing every word she says.
i know in my head the purpose and cause of dissociation.
i know as a child in a horrible situation it was a good thing.
it provided protection, self-preservation, sanity.
but sometimes the messages from the past get mixed up with the truth of the present.
they said, you are a liar . . . no one will believe you.
does that mean i can't believe myself?
i know what is true. i know what happened.
i know that i was in that study with that man doing horrible, terrifying, painful things to my body.
i know that my mind chose to escape my body and go to a place of safety to wait until he was finished with my body.
i know imagery is often used to soothe adults in stressful times.
i am amazed that as a child i could use a similar technique with no guidance or instruction.
i listen to the therapist explain, again, the benefit that dissociation provided then.
i seize. i clutch. i want to embrace, to understand.
i grasp.
i listen as the therapist explains, again, this concept of dissociation.
i lean in to make sure i am absorbing every word she says.
i know in my head the purpose and cause of dissociation.
i know as a child in a horrible situation it was a good thing.
it provided protection, self-preservation, sanity.
but sometimes the messages from the past get mixed up with the truth of the present.
they said, you are a liar . . . no one will believe you.
does that mean i can't believe myself?
i know what is true. i know what happened.
i know that i was in that study with that man doing horrible, terrifying, painful things to my body.
i know that my mind chose to escape my body and go to a place of safety to wait until he was finished with my body.
i know imagery is often used to soothe adults in stressful times.
i am amazed that as a child i could use a similar technique with no guidance or instruction.
i listen to the therapist explain, again, the benefit that dissociation provided then.
i seize. i clutch. i want to embrace, to understand.
i grasp.
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Thursday, September 27, 2012
Thankful Thursday #36
I've been having a difficult time putting thoughts into words lately.
A variety of things have interfered -- dd has been sick for 2 weeks and the doctor can't quite figure it out. Our router died 10 days ago which meant I lost my writing mojo for a few days, and I'm having trouble getting back into the routine. I started a new "schedule" for myself that moved my writing time from morning to evening. Apparently that is a very bad idea! So, all that to say I'm not sure what to say this morning.
I am thankful! Don't misunderstand, I'm just a little boggled. That happens to all of us sometimes. I don't think it's just me. I need to take a little time to stop and breathe and rest. Thinking and planning and doing are all great things, necessary things, but so are stopping and breathing and resting. So that's what I'm doing today. I'm stopping and breathing and resting and listening for God to lead me to the next what and how. I am trusting. And I am so grateful to have a God/Father who will provide.
Blessings!
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Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Wordless Wednesday -- Boy and Dog
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
The Simple Woman
FOR TODAY . . . September 25, 2012
Outside my window . . . the sky is a pale blue and the sun is shining. We have had unusually cool weather so far this fall. It's been lovely. My family says I'm freezing them to death sitting with the doors and windows open to the 50 and 60 degree weather!
I am thinking . . . about the joy of a clean house. I've really been focusing on keeping things picked up, and it's making a difference around the house and in my mood.
I am thankful . . . for good friends. I know this one pops up a lot, but the fact of the matter is that I have some terrific friends who have helped me through some incredibly difficult times. Besties are a blessing of unequaled proportions.
In the kitchen . . . last night was leftovers, but over the weekend we had quiche, steak and baked potatoes, green bean casserole, cooked apples, and the first batch of pumpkin bread.
I am wearing . . . my favorite Lanz of Salzburg nightgown and my chintz summer weight robe.
I am creating . . . still working on afghans, but I started the second one (no the first one's not finished!), and I'm pleased with the look.
I am going . . . to the YMCA for my swim this morning, and then spending the day doing home things: crocheting, beading, sewing, laundry, and Bible study lessons.
Outside my window . . . the sky is a pale blue and the sun is shining. We have had unusually cool weather so far this fall. It's been lovely. My family says I'm freezing them to death sitting with the doors and windows open to the 50 and 60 degree weather!
I am thankful . . . for good friends. I know this one pops up a lot, but the fact of the matter is that I have some terrific friends who have helped me through some incredibly difficult times. Besties are a blessing of unequaled proportions.
In the kitchen . . . last night was leftovers, but over the weekend we had quiche, steak and baked potatoes, green bean casserole, cooked apples, and the first batch of pumpkin bread.
I am wearing . . . my favorite Lanz of Salzburg nightgown and my chintz summer weight robe.
I am creating . . . still working on afghans, but I started the second one (no the first one's not finished!), and I'm pleased with the look.
I am going . . . to the YMCA for my swim this morning, and then spending the day doing home things: crocheting, beading, sewing, laundry, and Bible study lessons.
I am wondering . . . about the next move in the ever changing relationship with my extended family.
I am reading . . . Those Across the River by Christopher Buehlman.
I am looking forward to . . . continuing in this vein of keeping things up around the house. Bestie LBB reminded me yesterday that my house isn't dirty it is just lived in. A good reminder -- my home will never look like a magazine spread, and I don't think I'd want it to!
I am looking forward to . . . continuing in this vein of keeping things up around the house. Bestie LBB reminded me yesterday that my house isn't dirty it is just lived in. A good reminder -- my home will never look like a magazine spread, and I don't think I'd want it to!
I am hearing . . . birds chirping and a plane just passed overhead.
Around the house . . . LBB and I put out the rest of the autumn table runners and a few pumpkins and such. It looks quite lovely, I think.
I am pondering . . . the difficulty I'm having in getting my lessons done for my Precepts class on Genesis. It is a very in-depth study, as we are spending 6 weeks on the first TWO chapters!
I am pondering . . . the difficulty I'm having in getting my lessons done for my Precepts class on Genesis. It is a very in-depth study, as we are spending 6 weeks on the first TWO chapters!
One of my favorite things . . . is choosing my tea in the mornings. I've been on an English Breakfast slant for a while, but I'm thinking with the cooler weather I'll be shifting to Irish Breakfast soon, as it has a hearty flavor.
A few plans for the rest of the week . . . all the usual suspects and dinner guest on Sunday. Dh has invited his project group over to eat and work. I'm leaning toward a pork roast, but I'll check on the weather as we get a little closer.
Here is a picture for thought I am sharing . . .
A few plans for the rest of the week . . . all the usual suspects and dinner guest on Sunday. Dh has invited his project group over to eat and work. I'm leaning toward a pork roast, but I'll check on the weather as we get a little closer.
Here is a picture for thought I am sharing . . .
another little project I'm contemplating
Monday, September 24, 2012
Made by You Monday -- Prayer Beads
I used to make prayer beads all the time, but lately I just haven't been doing it as much. Recently one of Sam's friends asked if I'd make him one. I worked on it Saturday, and he came and looked at it. We made a few adjustments and I finished it yesterday. He seemed really pleased with it and I thought it turned out very nicely. Masculine, but still contemplative.
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Friday, September 21, 2012
Wide
Wide . . .
the word conjures up so much in my head.
Wide . . .
how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ (Eph. 3:18) was the first thing that came to my mind. what a wonderful picture!
the word conjures up so much in my head.
Wide . . .
how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ (Eph. 3:18) was the first thing that came to my mind. what a wonderful picture!
Wide . . .
how wide are the shifts in mood around my house from day to day (or moment to moment).
it's been a bit of roller coaster around here lately.
lots of changes.
my son left for college.
my husband started graduate school.
my daughter is in her senior year of college -- classes, working, internship -- all while dealing with bipolar disorder.
i am reinventing my relationship with my parents and coming to grips with the long lasting effects of childhood sexual abuse.
wide shifts.
Wide . . .
open possibilities.
open opportunities.
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
Wordless Wednesday -- New Project
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
The Simple Woman's Daybook
FOR TODAY . . . September 18, 2012
Outside my window . . . it's a cool but muggy morning here. The skies are overcast and we are expecting more rain and thunderstorms today. My cherry trees are almost bare. I saw 4 male bluejays in the cherry tree at the same time this morning!
I am thinking . . . about money and psychological care. Dd and I both see a counselor once a week and dd sees a psychiatrist for medication once a month. All that talking adds up! We are working on tightening our economic belt around here, and this is a difficult one to address, especially for dd. Prayers requested.
I am thankful . . . for my husband and his job. For the past 22 years dh has been the sole provider for our family. I am so grateful for his willingness to do this! And so thankful that he has a good and secure job in these difficult times.
In the kitchen . . . meatloaf on Sunday. Last night was black beans and rice with cornbread. Tonight is Parmesan chicken, squash souffle, and baby peas.
I am wearing . . . a giant black t-shirt from the movie "Raven" (I got free in a goodie bag from a walk back in the spring)
I am creating . . . order. I set up a new schedule (finally) for myself. This is the first week of trying it out. It's not perfect, but it is better than flying by the seat of my pants.
I am going . . . to the Y to get my swim in and otherwise stay at home all day. Yippee!
Outside my window . . . it's a cool but muggy morning here. The skies are overcast and we are expecting more rain and thunderstorms today. My cherry trees are almost bare. I saw 4 male bluejays in the cherry tree at the same time this morning!
I am thankful . . . for my husband and his job. For the past 22 years dh has been the sole provider for our family. I am so grateful for his willingness to do this! And so thankful that he has a good and secure job in these difficult times.
In the kitchen . . . meatloaf on Sunday. Last night was black beans and rice with cornbread. Tonight is Parmesan chicken, squash souffle, and baby peas.
I am wearing . . . a giant black t-shirt from the movie "Raven" (I got free in a goodie bag from a walk back in the spring)
I am creating . . . order. I set up a new schedule (finally) for myself. This is the first week of trying it out. It's not perfect, but it is better than flying by the seat of my pants.
I am wondering . . . about prioritizing my time.
I am reading . . . Stigma by Philip Hawley, Jr. It's a medical thriller much like Robin Cook.
I am looking forward to . . . seeing how the rest of this week plays out with my new plan in place.
I am hearing . . . just peace and quiet. So lovely!
Around the house . . . I've started putting out a few autumn things to change the mood in the house. I'm not a big decorator, but I do find that keeping visual reminders of the seasons in the house helps me enjoy each season a little more fully.
I am pondering . . . how to find out what ever became of my first yoga instructor. I would like to get in touch with her and let her know how much yoga has done for me, and see if she's still teaching anywhere.
I am pondering . . . how to find out what ever became of my first yoga instructor. I would like to get in touch with her and let her know how much yoga has done for me, and see if she's still teaching anywhere.
One of my favorite things . . . is peace. Having a peaceful home is so important to my well being. But peace must not be achieved at the cost of another's needs. It can become quite the balancing act with multiple people in a house.
A few plans for the rest of the week . . . swimming, therapy, Precepts class, dinner guests, date night, and a clear Saturday.
Here is a picture for thought I am sharing . . .
A few plans for the rest of the week . . . swimming, therapy, Precepts class, dinner guests, date night, and a clear Saturday.
Here is a picture for thought I am sharing . . .
the return of "Franken-puppy"
she had surgery last week and is healing
up quite nicely.
Monday, September 17, 2012
Made by You Monday -- Manic Meatloaf
Autumn is in the air at our house. I’ve been
pulling out autumn decorations and even had my toes painted a fall-ish color.
For lunch yesterday we had the quintessential autumn Sunday dinner – meatloaf,
mashed potatoes, and green beans.
For years I wasn’t a meatloaf fan. I just never
liked it. Part of it was a texture thing. It always seemed mushy to me. Part of
it was flavor. Meatloaf tended to taste like a big hamburger which made it kind
of blah. But a few years ago I found this recipe (another one of Leanne Ely’s –
I promise I’m not getting a commission from her!).
Manic Meatloaf
Serves 8-12
1
onion, chopped
1
carrot chopped
½
bell pepper, chopped
2
cloves garlic, pressed
2
teaspoons cumin
1
teaspoon nutmeg
½
teaspoon pepper
½
cup ketchup
2
eggs
½
cup buttermilk
1
cup oatmeal (not instant)
2
pounds ground beef, extra lean (or a blend of turkey and beef)
1
cup seasoned bread crumbs
Preheat oven
to 375 degrees. Saute veggies in a little olive oil.
Combine all
ingredients in a large mixing bowl. Salt and pepper liberally. Shape like the
Goodyear blimp in a baking dish, and bake for 45 minutes. Let stand for 10
minutes. Slice and serve. (This recipe may be halved and also freezes well).
from Healthy
Foods by Leanne Ely
Happy Eating!
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Friday, September 14, 2012
Technical Difficulties
I am sorry to inform you that my router died this morning, so I have no wifi in my house. NO INTERNET unless I'm plugged in. I feel so outdated!
Post will be intermittent until the new router arrives via Amazon.
I hope to be back up running by Tuesday or Wednesdays.
Until then, have a great weekend, and don't forget me : )
Post will be intermittent until the new router arrives via Amazon.
I hope to be back up running by Tuesday or Wednesdays.
Until then, have a great weekend, and don't forget me : )
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Thankful Thursday #35
I've been thinking about other Christians a lot lately -- not individually, but collectively. I was talking with a young woman who is struggling with faith and what to believe, and how often she's been let down by those professing Christianity. I reminded her to read the Bible to learn the true character of God. We can learn only so much from other Christians about God. Yes, we are made His image, and yes, we are to be the hands and feet of Jesus in this world, but we are imperfect representations. Other Christians will let us down, and we will let them down.
The flip side of this dilemma is our need for "skin-on" God relationships. We need, even crave, interaction with others who bring God into our lives through touch, talk, action, and prayer. I see so many wounded people who seem compelled to handle it all by themselves. I understand. I was there once. It is a scary thing to show your need and vulnerability to others, but oh what a blessing it can be!
I have a quote hanging on my refrigerator --
Time heals only those wounds
that are shared and understood.
My husband put it this way --
Isn't it odd how if you're not
feeling emotionally well
and you need to talk to people,
you don't want to talk to people.
So, if you don't want to talk to anyone,
just want you to know, I'm there for you.
I challenge you today to do 2 things. Open yourself up to share and understand (not solve) someone else's pain, and thank someone who's been there for you. If you haven't tried sharing, I strongly encourage you to, because you might just be surprised.
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Wednesday, September 12, 2012
:: 10 good things
It's always a good idea to stop and consider the good things in my life . . .
1 :: hummingbirds regularly visiting my feeder
2 :: antibiotics to clear up an infection that was really dragging me down
3 :: a new yoga class with my bestie, ccd. the instructor is 79 and the oldest member in the class is 86
4 :: the change in season. i love waking up to cooler temperatures and sipping my tea with the door wide open
5 :: watching my husband enjoy setting up his new computer. it's been nearly 12 years since he's had a new desktop
6 :: a good, relaxing talk with dd last night about beliefs, love, God, and people
7 :: riding with the top down in my Fiat
8 :: opening up those coloring books again. a fine way to de-stress when things are getting a little crazy
9 :: a new afghan pattern that I really like and it moves quickly
10 :: sharing my life, good and bad, with friends irl and through blogging
Namaste!
1 :: hummingbirds regularly visiting my feeder
2 :: antibiotics to clear up an infection that was really dragging me down
3 :: a new yoga class with my bestie, ccd. the instructor is 79 and the oldest member in the class is 86
4 :: the change in season. i love waking up to cooler temperatures and sipping my tea with the door wide open
5 :: watching my husband enjoy setting up his new computer. it's been nearly 12 years since he's had a new desktop
6 :: a good, relaxing talk with dd last night about beliefs, love, God, and people
7 :: riding with the top down in my Fiat
8 :: opening up those coloring books again. a fine way to de-stress when things are getting a little crazy
9 :: a new afghan pattern that I really like and it moves quickly
10 :: sharing my life, good and bad, with friends irl and through blogging
Namaste!
Wordless Wednesday -- Going to the Vet (aka, No Breakfast)
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
The Simple Woman
FOR TODAY . . . September 11, 2012
Outside my window . . . the sky is a cloudless blue that stretches forever. It's cool 58 degrees. My cherry tree is dropping it's leaves quickly this fall, as the other trees haven't even started to change colors yet.
I am thinking . . . that antibiotics can be a wonderful thing. I started one yesterday for a bladder infection and am somewhat amazed at how much better I feel.
I am thankful . . . for a new yoga class I started last night with one of my besties. It's an Intro class, but it was nice to work step by step through poses and sequences making sure that my form was correct. The instructor is 79 years old and there is another lady in the class who is 86! That's just one of the reasons I do yoga!
In the kitchen . . . things have been a bit scattered, but tonight we are having grilled chicken sandwiches, corn on the cob, and fresh green beans.
I am wearing . . . my summer weight robe and an oversized pink t-shirt (I know you are all jealous of my haute couture!)
I am creating . . . still plugging through those afghans. I need some smaller projects to work on as well. Oh yeah, I went to a quilting class on Saturday and learned how to make the cathedral window design.
I am going . . . to stay home today and try to catch up a little on all the things I haven't done while not feeling well.
Outside my window . . . the sky is a cloudless blue that stretches forever. It's cool 58 degrees. My cherry tree is dropping it's leaves quickly this fall, as the other trees haven't even started to change colors yet.
I am thankful . . . for a new yoga class I started last night with one of my besties. It's an Intro class, but it was nice to work step by step through poses and sequences making sure that my form was correct. The instructor is 79 years old and there is another lady in the class who is 86! That's just one of the reasons I do yoga!
In the kitchen . . . things have been a bit scattered, but tonight we are having grilled chicken sandwiches, corn on the cob, and fresh green beans.
I am wearing . . . my summer weight robe and an oversized pink t-shirt (I know you are all jealous of my haute couture!)
I am creating . . . still plugging through those afghans. I need some smaller projects to work on as well. Oh yeah, I went to a quilting class on Saturday and learned how to make the cathedral window design.
I am going . . . to stay home today and try to catch up a little on all the things I haven't done while not feeling well.
I am wondering . . . about the date. I don't do anything commemorate the 9-11 disaster, but of course I keep thinking about it.
I am reading . . . Stigma by Philip Hawley, Jr. It's a medical thriller much like Robin Cook.
I am looking forward to . . . feeling better! I was really concerned that I was moving into a major depression, so it was quite a relief to find out there was a physiological cause for my malaise (well that's quite a turn of phrase, isn't it?)
I am hearing . . . the dogs pacing around before settling in for their morning naps. Tomorrow they both go in to get their teeth cleaned and Squeaker has to have lump removed from her neck.
Around the house . . . things are quite chaotic (read, messy). I want to try this new technique I found, but it really might be that I just need to get up and do it!
I am pondering . . . stretching, both literally and figuratively. They are equally good for the soul.
I am pondering . . . stretching, both literally and figuratively. They are equally good for the soul.
One of my favorite things . . . is the changing seasons. I don't think I could live anywhere that there wasn't an obvious seasonal change. I was happy to be able to wear a new long sleeved t-shirt for the first time yesterday.
A few plans for the rest of the week . . . a little housework, a little laundry, taking the dogs to the vet, yoga, swimming, therapy, Bible study, and then ds comes home this weekend : )
Here is a picture for thought I am sharing . . .
A few plans for the rest of the week . . . a little housework, a little laundry, taking the dogs to the vet, yoga, swimming, therapy, Bible study, and then ds comes home this weekend : )
Here is a picture for thought I am sharing . . .
Just a little humor, and a gentle reminder!
Monday, September 10, 2012
Made by You Monday: Menus . . . Again
Craftiness has all but disappeared in my house -- at least completed craftiness. Last week I don't think I posted at all. I was reprimanded by my bestie. Sheesh, it's a lot of stress to be responsible for 2 households! Anyway, here's this week's list. Let me warn you it is nothing exciting, but hopefully it will get food on the table -- well the counter.
Day #1 -- Provence Tilapia
Corn on the Cob
Green Beans
Day #2 -- Grilled Chicken Sandwiches
Stovetop Fried Potatoes
Garlic Okra
Day #3 -- Manic Meatloaf
Baked Sweet Potatoes
Steamed Broccoli
Day #4 -- 4-Bean Enchiladas
Tossed Salad
Day #5 -- Breakfast for Dinner!
Eggs
Bacon
Fruit Cup
Cinnamon Toast
Day #6 -- Kitchen Sink Salad
I'll post more recipes later, but for now here's the really quick and easy one. (Don't judge!)
4-Bean Enchiladas
10 8" flour tortillas
15 oz can each: kidney beans, garbanzo beans, pinto beans, and navy or great northern beans (I use black beans instead of the garbanzo beans, but that's just a personal preference.)
11 oz can cheddar cheese soup (condensed)
8 oz can tomato sauce
10 oz can enchilada sauce
1 1/2 cup shredded cheddar cheese
Drain and rinse all beans. Combine beans and soup. Spoon 1/3 cup mixture down the center of each tortilla; roll up and place seam side down in a greased baking pan. Mix sauces and spoon over enchiladas. Cover with foil, and bake at 350 degrees for 30 minutes. Remove foil, top with cheese, and bake for an additional 5 minutes or until cheese is thoroughly melted.
Serves 5
Happy eating!
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Thursday, September 6, 2012
Thankful Thursday #34
I am a slow learner. God keeps teaching me the same lesson over and over again.
I understand, accept, and apply for a while, and then I forget and panic and become frightened again.
Remind you of anyone else? Israel, the chosen people of God?
And as I type that I see the irony in it.
I am chosen by God, and yet I have such a difficult time holding onto His promises. Resting in His peace. Trusting in His faithfulness.
I am reminded of these words:
O, for a faith that will not shrink,
Though pressed by every foe,
That will not tremble on the brink
Of any earthly woe!
Though pressed by every foe,
That will not tremble on the brink
Of any earthly woe!
That will not murmur nor complain
Beneath the chastening rod,
But, in the hour of grief or pain,
Will lean upon its God.
Beneath the chastening rod,
But, in the hour of grief or pain,
Will lean upon its God.
A faith that shines more bright and clear
When tempests rage without;
That when in danger knows no fear,
In darkness feels no doubt.
When tempests rage without;
That when in danger knows no fear,
In darkness feels no doubt.
That bears, unmoved, the world’s dread frown
Nor heeds its scornful smile;
That seas of trouble cannot drown,
Nor Satan’s arts beguile.
Nor heeds its scornful smile;
That seas of trouble cannot drown,
Nor Satan’s arts beguile.
A faith that keeps the narrow way
Till life’s last hour is fled,
And with a pure and heavenly ray
Lights up a dying bed.
Till life’s last hour is fled,
And with a pure and heavenly ray
Lights up a dying bed.
Lord, give me such a faith as this,
And then, whate’er may come,
I’ll taste, e’en here, the hallowed bliss
Of an eternal home.
And then, whate’er may come,
I’ll taste, e’en here, the hallowed bliss
Of an eternal home.
Lord, give me a faith like this. Thank you for your unwavering patience and love. Forgive me when I fail to see You as You truly are.
With gratitude.
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Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
The Simple Woman's Daybook
FOR TODAY . . . September 4, 2012
Outside my window . . . it is gray and cloudy. We are still covered by the remains of Isaac, but haven't gotten an enormous amount rain.
I am thinking . . . about difficult things. This is a bad time of year for abuse memories, and I've been stuck in a loop regarding two of the abusers for a little while now.
I am thankful . . . for a good day with the whole family yesterday. No one had to work and ds was home from college. Lots of talking and laughing.
In the kitchen . . . we're enjoying the last of the summer veggies from the Farmer's Market. Last night we had squash souffle with peppercorn asiago cheese, garlic okra, and fresh cooked green beans.
I am wearing . . . a big white t-shirt and my pj pants with pink rollerskating elephants.
I am creating . . . afghans, but I am making progress.
Outside my window . . . it is gray and cloudy. We are still covered by the remains of Isaac, but haven't gotten an enormous amount rain.
I am thankful . . . for a good day with the whole family yesterday. No one had to work and ds was home from college. Lots of talking and laughing.
In the kitchen . . . we're enjoying the last of the summer veggies from the Farmer's Market. Last night we had squash souffle with peppercorn asiago cheese, garlic okra, and fresh cooked green beans.
I am wearing . . . a big white t-shirt and my pj pants with pink rollerskating elephants.
I am creating . . . afghans, but I am making progress.
I am going . . . to lunch with my bestie, ccd, at a little French cafe called Fleur de Lys Cuisine.
I am wondering . . . why my dd feels it necessary to talk incessantly while getting ready for school!?!
I am reading . . . The Surgeon by Tess Gerritsen. It may be too gritty for my taste right now. Has anyone else read the Rizzoli/Isles series?
I am looking forward to . . . doing some beading and quilting in addition to the crocheting I've been working on. One of ds's friends asked me to make him a rosary, so I've got to get started on that soon.
I am hearing . . . quiet, now that dd has left for school.
Around the house . . . I'm doing some reorganizing and a little freshening up. Time to put the summer decor (such as it is!) away and pull out a few fall things.
I am pondering . . . how counseling will go tomorrow. I've been having a fair amount of pain which frequently means it will be a rough session.
I am pondering . . . how counseling will go tomorrow. I've been having a fair amount of pain which frequently means it will be a rough session.
One of my favorite things . . . my quiet time in the morning. I read my emails, check Facebook, blog, and do my Bible study. It's restful and puts me in a good place for the rest of my day.
A few plans for the rest of the week . . . lunch today with ccd, therapy tomorrow, Precepts class on Thursday, and a quilting class on Saturday.
Here is a picture for thought I am sharing . . .
our haul from the Farmer's Market
Sunday, September 2, 2012
Finding God on the Moon
This is a piece my minister wrote. Just sharing.
Buzz Aldrin and Neil Armstrong are famous for this moment in American history –the giant leap in human creativity, engineering, and science. I found myself thinking about Buzz and Neil over the weekend after we learned of Neil Armstrong’s passing.
My generation (I was born in 1979) is virtually incapable of appreciating (even with the help of Wiki and Google and YouTube) the magnitude of Aldrin and Armstrong’s courage. You’ve seen the photos. Some of you have the uncle, the conspiracy theorist, ever ready to tell you that we did not, in fact, ever land on the moon. “It’s propaganda!”
My generation (I was born in 1979) is virtually incapable of appreciating (even with the help of Wiki and Google and YouTube) the magnitude of Aldrin and Armstrong’s courage. You’ve seen the photos. Some of you have the uncle, the conspiracy theorist, ever ready to tell you that we did not, in fact, ever land on the moon. “It’s propaganda!”
A story has emerged out of this watershed moment . . . the story comes directly from Buzz (Aldrin, not Lightyear, I have to remind my 3 year old son, Lucas). I wonder, to myself, if Neil thought about this moment during the final few days of his life. I wonder what these memories meant to him as he drew closer to the great mystery that is our inevitable death.
An elder in a Presbyterian Church in Houston, Aldrin wanted to mark the occasion as a tribute to God, the Creator, and as a blessing for the rest of the world. (You can look this up in Aldrin's book, "Magnificent Desolation".) After consulting his minister, he decided the sacrament of Communion would be the most appropriate. Don’t ask me how this worked in zero gravity (one-sixth gravity technically).
During a break in the hoopla and conversation with the rest of the U.S., Aldrin took out the bread and the wine. He received the meal Jesus had instituted two thousand years prior, when no one could have possibly imagined space travel. Aldrin read the words of Jesus, “I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.” (Jn. 15:5) He also read Psalm 8: “You have set your glory in the heavens . . . When I consider the heavens, the words of your fingers, the moon and the stars which you have set in place . . . Who are we that you are mindful of us, human beings that you care for us?”
The first food ever consumed . . . the bread. The first liquid, wine.
The first food ever consumed . . . the bread. The first liquid, wine.
In Aldrin’s own words: “. . . It’s interesting to think that some of the first words spoken on the moon were the words of Jesus Christ, who made the Earth and the moon — and Who, in the immortal words of Dante, is Himself the ‘Love that moves the Sun and other stars.’”
When these sacred moments come to you . . . what do you do? How do you respond?
The birth of a child.
A marriage mended from the snare of divorce.
The relief from immense physical pain.
The call that announces the absence of cancer from your body.
The end of an arduous journey.
The return of a prodigal friend or child.
Good news from a distant country.
The death of a hero, like Armstrong.
Bread and wine, a table, a thankful heart.
Jesus is already present in those moments. The bread and wine remind us, embodying this eternal truth down to the tips of our toes. Or to the edges of the universe.
The Love of God holds all things together. 250,000 miles from home. Aldrin knew that God was all around, in each moment, on the moon, in the bread and in the wine. I like to imagine Neil Armstrong remembering this in his final hour. I like to think all of us might do the same.
Like the prophet Jonah of the Jewish Scriptures, Aldrin and Armstrong learned what he already knew, there’s nowhere you can go that God isn’t.
So eat and drink and celebrate and dance and laugh and give thanks. Chief Tucumseh famously penned these words, words that fit Armstrong’s life and death so well. When it comes your time to die, be not like those whose hearts are filled with the fear of death, so that when their time comes they weep and pray for a little more time to live their lives over again in a different way. Sing your death song and die like a hero going home.
Josh Graves is a minister and writer. Visit his website: joshgraves.com
or follow him on Twitter: @joshgraves.com. His next book, "Heaven on Earth" with Chris Seidman (Abingdon), comes out in November.
Read more: http://www.foxnews.com/opinion/2012/08/31/finding-god-on-moon/#ixzz25KPm1k8G
Saturday, September 1, 2012
What's the Point?
I've been blogging for just over 3 years now, and I recently stopped while looking at my stats (I am a stats slut!) and wondered "What's the point?"
I write about a variety of things, but the majority has to do in some way with recovery from childhood sexual abuse. I write because it helps me process things, and I hope that my processing may help someone else.
But I also write to help me remember -- to remember the truth of the abuse; to remember that it really did happen; to remember that it (the abuse) causes most of the day to day struggles I have.
What I've found from writing it out is that
:: I am not alone. There are a lot of folks out there using blogging as a way to connect. And there are a lot of folks out there using it as therapy. And that's okay.
:: it's not a self-centered activity. For a long time I thought most blogging was just vanity. What I've found in my experience is it's not just vanity. It's an opportunity to connect in a concrete way, albeit through cyberspace.
:: feedback is important, but not vital. It's amazing how empowering it can be to have strangers pat you on the back and give me an "atta girl". I didn't get much of that growing up, so it's really nice to get some now. But it's also empowering to just get it said.
:: I've "met" some wonderful people through this process, and they have helped me in ways they may never fully realize.
So here's what I've decided. I blog because I like to. I've always wanted to write and be read. I want to write a book about my experiences, but I don't know if I have the skill . . . the patience . . . the strength. Blogging lets me test the waters. Test my strengths and weaknesses.
So thanks to all of you for your support over the past 3 years.
I'm not going anywhere, so stick around.
Blessings!
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