I love the list. The orderliness of it all. I love seeing it all written out -- so easy to mark off as I accomplish each item.
A plan keeps me focused on the needs/wants of the day. It tells me what to do next.
But lately, execution has been my problem. I'm not sure what it is exactly. In the past a list was all I needed to get it done. Now it seems that the list has lost it's power, and I'm wondering if the list was just another "must do or else".
Part of healing from childhood sexual abuse has been getting away from the "or else" mentality. That's a good thing. A healthy thing. But I'm struggling with what takes its place. Like the demon possessed man, I've got an empty spot and I need to fill it with something new, healthy, better.
So I'm rethinking my plan, and what drives it. I'm trying to find positive motivation for doing all the things on my list -- the housework and cooking and exercise and even fun things.
Maybe I need a plan for that.
linking up with Five Minute Friday
