Does it make me unlovable that my home is not immaculate?
I think about the dinner I just cooked for some grad students. Chicken, mashed potatoes, asparagus, butter muffins, and chocolate bundt cake. But I didn't put on pretty clothes or lipstick before they came. I was still dressed in my yoga clothes from this morning.
Does it make me unlovable that I'm not Martha Stewart?
I fill out my daily schedule. I look at the things that get done most days. Devotional time, memory work, blogging, feeding my family, washing their clothes. And then I look at all the other things on the list that don't get done, because something else came up, or I just ran out of steam.
Does it make me unlovable because my list is never completed?
And of course, the answer to all of those is "No". Yet I have to pose the questions regularly to help me stay focused on God's love for me pouring over me, immersing me so that I can love myself. The way He loves me.
I kneel down and say a prayer for me, because it's not enough to just pray for others, and there is nothing selfish in asking for His help for me too.
Does it make me unlovable that I have to keep asking the same questions over and over again?
linking up with a dare to love yourself
Haha, no of course now. Yet, I do the same thing all the time, too! It's a work in process with me. I am trying to get out of the habit of feeling bad or selfish for asking God for something, for me. I don't know why I feel I'm not deserving of something from God, but everyone else is. -Ugh! Anyway, it's good to remind yourself every day. Maybe I should try and do the same.
ReplyDeleteit seems so obvious when you write it out, doesn't it, yet it somehow gets clouded in our brains... the enemy wants to confuse us. yet God's love is so simple and pure. love how you're working through this friend. bless you.
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